Red, the darker side of pink.
Some poetry to prove that not all of this site is pink, fluffy, cute and cuddlesome. Though some are...
This poetry is listed in pretty much chronological order. Hopefully, you'll see it getting better towards the end.
Just in case anybody is interested, I have actually had one poem published now. You'll have to mail me to get details of what book it's in.
I Love | I Cry | When I'm Alone | If only dreams could be reality | The Hater | The Cold Sleep | Miserable Thursday Morning | Toast | Cruel Omicron | Miserable Friday Morning (Fears from within) | I'll never take you again | Friends | Quiet | Obsession | Untitled (suggestions taken) | Herpes
I hurt, I break
I break, I survive
I survive, I endure
I endure, I find
I find, I feel
I feel, I love
I love, I hurt
I try, I fail
I do
Sometimes
I feel
I do
Sometimes
I love
I do
Sometimes
I hide
I do
When I'm alone, I tend to think
Though when I think, I must be alone
I think I'm alone, or I'm alone I think.
If only dreams could be reality.
I surround myself with others
But make sure that I'm alone
I listen to all problems
But never to my own
I hide within a great facade
My face a miriad mask
A terribly cracked and twisted
A mutilated broken cask
I've wished myself lately
Down into sleep
A passionate giver
Without feelings so deep
The lonesome creation
I've invented myself
Simply within me
An abstract mental health
Death. It comes to us all.
No escaping the icy grasp
Of a farewell final breath
Whispering in the dark
Unremembered wantings
Forever in your past
Regrets that will remain so
A blemish on your life
That hatred stored inside
Its vicious hooks
Follow your name down
Attached hurtful and deep
Your body is interned
Finally laid to rest
Lustful spectre full of angst
A prisoner of your life
The blood thumping.
Exploding in your head.
Pain tearing from the inside.
Screaming, shouting, unrelenting
"Sleep the cold sleep!"
The machine breathing.
Whistling in your head.
Tubes tearing from the inside.
Screeching, hissing, unrelenting
"Sleep the cold sleep."
The God-man preaching.
Resolving in your head.
Faith tearing from the inside.
Talking, soothing, unrelenting
"Sleep the cold sleep."
The close-one aching.
Departing in your head
Love tearing from the inside
Pleading, crying, always whispering
"Sleep the cold sleep?"
It's difficult to be alone
When you hate your own company
Sorrow comes tenfold
When you weep in single misery
A light one day
Brought about by petty love
Anguish waiting to happen
It's much easier
It must now be conceded
To spend your life alone
Nobody dragging you down
Making you sick
Nobody in your way
Under your skin
No one to care for
To care for you
To hold you
To touch you
To caress you
To breath you
It's difficult to be alone
Don't wake me!
I shout!
Bitch!
Clean up your act!
Let me sleep!
I don't care for you.
If your life is me!
Give me your all!
I'm awake!
Bring me my toast!
Stupid cow!
Burnt!
Put down that Knife!
You'll regret it.
Bitch!
I shout!
Don't kill me!
I've had it with kindness.
Nice boy. Nice life.
Takes care. Thinks twice!
I see an end to this repulsive attitude.
Take a stand.
Fight.
The apocolypse is near.
I shall rage.
Take control.
Make my life my own once more.
Remake myself in my own true image.
Show my face to the world.
To spit on, to be spat upon.
I don't care.
Kindness has finally seen its end within me.
Miserable Friday Morning. (Fears from within).
Waves wash across my face
Through these stinging eyes.
I see the truth in its finality
Salt water tears aside the causeway of my nose.
Pressure builds from a fore-head dam
Filling my brain with flood water hell
The cause of the pain
The feeling within
The truth as I see now
Through salt water tears
Blurred and distorted
Fears from within
A shudder of knowledge
A feeling of dread
Rekindled emotions
Through my body and head.
The waves return a tide from my heart
My eyes are dry now, the feeling subsides
It was the truth I saw, but twisted and wrong
Trails of bitter sorrow down to my lips
My head has been emptied
The flood gate drips cool
The cause of my pain
The feeling within
The truth as I saw it
Through salt water tears
Clear now, percieving
Fears from within
A stake through my emotions.
You're the vampire not me
You took what you wanted
And left me a shell
I thought you I fought you
Your taint took me whole
Clouding my everything
I started to fall
I never meant to destroy
Any innocent heart
Tearing and savage
Unthinking and harsh
And yet you're still there
Killing me whole
Piercing my life
With a stake through my soul.
As the pits deep and dark
Attempt to swallow me
I hide away from the people
I know I need
They know I need
The friends that I turn from
Fight for my plight
While I cast them in shadow
With hate and with fright
I turn them away again and again
They know I need
I know I need
They drag me from hiding
Surround me in light
They fight all my fears
They fight for my plight
Never relenting
I let them near
Embrace in their warmth
Absorb what I can
Then fight onwards and onwards
I have what I need
They give what I need
Forever returning
Never leaving my side.
I don't hear anything
The silence is engulfing
I project my thoughts
Hoping that somebody can receive them
Sitting in my shell
Fear of expression hanging heavy
I wish I could tell of it
But who would understand?
Though it's never mentioned
I feel a thought received
A comfortable silence
The friendship that I need
Swab down my exposed wound
Dowse me in cleansing fire
Anticeptic on my feelings
A scalpel for this emotion
Remove it like the cancer it has become
Malignant and deadly
This obsession must end.
Why can't I love?
Why don't I feel?
Is it something with me?
Or simply the fact
that no matter who I meet
what they do
how they look
they're never the one
I search and I look
for even close to perfect
could it be that it's true
you have only one chance
if you miss it
that's it
"thanks, goodbye"
regret it for ever
you never see
your next chance
to be happy
because you're looking behind
at the things that you missed
I got into bed
slept with the dead
Although he doesn't know it yet
Voodoo VD man from proxima three
Enticed me, seduced me
Made it hurt to pee
Where did it come from
where will it go
Many questions asked
It really makes no difference to me anyway
It's caused its problems
but will it go away?
Wish I hadn't done it now
but it's too late
ow it's sore and starting to grate
So I wish I didn't have these herpes blues
It's awkward it hurts
Wish you were in my shoes